So if you have been following my blog you know that my girlfriend is pregnant. So, obviously, she's not a virgin. She is a bisexual who in March was dating a guy named Nadar and she thought she was in love. They had sex, in today's world no bid deal, and no one's a slut until they get pregnant. Well, she did, and people not only give her issues about being pregnant because she decided to broadcast it on FaceBook, they give the two of issues, nothing major and none of our friends care however other people that don't know us well give us issues, it's no secret, just from our families. Now this guy DJ has been giving us the most issues because he used to date her, and he knows she's no virgin, again I repeat he DATED her, (secret meaning: the slept together), she likes sex.
Now here's the thing. I am a very proud virgin. I have no problem with the fact that I haven't had sex, and quite frankly I'm no where near ready for it. I don't want to have sex, I just don't. So, do you see the problem I'm starting to get at here? Well, DJ doesn't believe that I'm a virgin, and Emily knows I am. So the other day DJ was on the phone with Emily, (because they're still friends, sorta), and he asked her if she would sleep with him because since she was pregnant he wouldn't have to wear a condom, which he says would make things so much better. (Apparently, he's never heard of an STI, or STD). She told him maybe to get him off of her back.
She's talking to me, and asks me what I think if she would. I looked at her. I stared at her I should say. Was she seriously asking me this? Does she really want sex that bad? I was in a state of shock, and anger. I didn't let the anger show. Now another thing that I believe in relationships is that whether it is known about or not, cheating is the worst stab in the back that someone can do. I believe that it can be forgiven, however, she asked me basically for my permission for her to have sex with someone other than me, who she's with.
Now what do you think? I sad that if she did, then we were done because the relationship isn't going to work, because I'm not ready for sex and I won't be for a very long time. She told me that she wouldn't and she said that I'm the best thing that has happened to her in her life, and I'm one of the only ones standing by her. And she wouldn't do anything to betray me. Now in my opinion, it hurts knowing that she would venture for sex. Am I over reacting? Underreacting? And should I believe her that she didn't have sex with DJ or isn't still thinking about it? I understand that she is pregnant and her hormones are off, but is it excusable? I'm not sure, I don't want to loose a relationship because of sex, or in this case lack of it.
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